The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said: “The Lord descends every night to the lowest heaven when one-third of the night remains and says: ‘Who will call upon me, that I may answer Him? Who will ask of me, that I may give him? Who will seek my forgiveness that I may forgive him?’” [Bukhari, Muslim] Mind-blowing.
Days on end I would wake up at 1AM,
My mind too loud not allowing me to sleep,
I try to read,
I try to NOT think,
I wished I had someone to talk to,
But what will I say to them when they do not know what I feel,
How can I explain the feelings that I myself cannot understand?
How can I expect someone to understand what I am going through what I myself cannot comprehend?
It’s not pain I cry for then,
But the very little that I understand.
I stood one day and I prayed to Allah for a peace of mind,
Not knowing that that was the only key,
To talk to the only listener that I can count on,
To the only one that understands me better,
I humbled myself and cried in Sujood,
I found peace in the Tahajjud.
I could share my thoughts without speaking,
I just feel and I know HE (the exalted) will understand,
As I ask for patience and strength,
I find tranquility as I stand to pray,
That can only be provided by HIM.
How could I have ever thought that I was all alone?