This is not an inspiration post, or a post about what you should do to get out of the feeling of being lost.
This is a post from a human to another human, extending a hand and letting you know that you are not alone. If you’re feeling lost.
This sea is vast; and you might be paddling your own boat, not knowing where you’re going, or where exactly you want to go, but the journey you are in now, is the same as mine (not that it makes anything better) .
I don’t know about everyone, and I honestly envy the people who have their maps in hand and are paddling so effortlessly. Those people – I guess – can even take detours and still be able to know the way back to where they should be going. They have a map in hand. I guess they don’t really have those moments, where we scream to the sky crying for help, hoping one day some other person is going to show up and rescue us, or at least just give us a map to show us where we should be going.
Sometimes, I feel like I do paddle the right way. I can feel the wind in my hair and it’s directing me where I should be. My heart and my soul both sing together in unison. This is the way. This is the way.
However, I fall asleep, and someone or something pushes my boat in a different direction, of darkness and gloom; and I have to start all over again. I have to get back to that place. My feelings a long lost memory. I will know it when I’m there, because then my heart will be at peace.
So I paddle, in the never ending waves to nowhere – land. With the occasional fleeting feelings of peace.
This is what life feels like most times.
Sometimes, you wonder what it would be like if you just jumped into the sea and drowned yourself. You have no purpose, no direction. What’s it going to matter? Your life has no essence anyway. But the unknown is scary. Better to paddle, maybe one day you’ll get there.
Over the past week, I have observed people and I have found that; people with a purpose, hardly get swayed. They are the most peaceful at heart. Whatever their purpose.
You and I are lost now because we haven’t found our purpose, and the only way we can do this is to shut out everyone’s voices and listen to ourselves (It’s the hardest thing to do) . Let’s keep searching, let’s keep listening and most importantly, let’s keep listening to our hearts.
Let’s be honest with ourselves.
I’m praying for both of us.
(If you have found your purpose, please do share it with everyone)